Once again I took Stacie to the casino. This time it was the Firelake Grand, which may not be much on a scale relative to those in Vegas, but for Oklahoma it's quite the elaborate and massive facility. It's at least twice as big as the one we went to last week. I don't think we're turning into the kind of people who go to these places too often...she just had a check from Cafe Press for a hundred dollars and it wasn't earmarked for anything so we decided to go play the games, listen to the carnival-esque cacaphony and hopefully walk out with a couple more dollars than we walked in with.

We succeeded in the first two endeavours, but as was the case last week, we left a little poorer than we were when we walked through the doors. Of course it didn't have to be that way...we both were on top of the winning side for periods of time, but once you get into a game it's very hard to stop.

At one point I had given up on a game and decided to just sit there and watch Stacie do fairly well on the machine next to mine. She was doing pretty good and after a little while I got bored. So I took one dollar and put it back into the machine that had been kicking my ass. Hard to believe, but I worked that dollar up to at least 60 bucks. A rational man would have stopped, but I figured what the hell...we came in with a hundred dollars, we should at least walk out with as much as we planned to spend. It didn't work out that way...

I don't guess I got my fill because on the way home from a friend's house yesterday I pulled into the Sac and Fox casino with a five dollar bill, hoping to at least double it...small, chump change, I know, but so what? If I could turn it into a twenty I would be able to get a little something that I wanted.

I racked up about $35 but do you think I quit? I wish I had. It was one of those things where I thought to myself, "Go ahead...it was just $5. Nothing gained nothing lost". I don't know why I can't just understand that such thinking is the very thing that will keep me from gaining anything at all in these places.

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